on resolutions…

Happy New Year!  An epiphany surfaced last night as we patiently waited out the new year watching movies streaming to the TV.   I will never have the time, energy or stamina to use up all my art supplies. My primary art goal for 2011 is to be more productive in the studio than I am at the computer.   So to realize that I will never live long enough to use all my supplies simply takes off the pressure. I can just play now!!!

Since my November class I have amassed 5# of soy wax, a used electric fry pan I bought on Ebay, a large hard-carved tjap (printing block) from Indonesia, hand-carved wood blocks from Africa and a loved block from my friend  Rayna.  All of this now patiently waits with the already amassed jars of paints, dye and fabrics. And that is just in the basement.

got resolutions?

Upstairs in the studio are gorgeous stacks of fabrics sorted by color, a design wall with two pieces currently gracing it…one finished and one in process. An organized closet full of treasure, machines and other implements for creating art. And one middle aged woman who suddenly realized it is time to just breathe, exhale and do what she wants, irregardless of the outcome.

Unless I were to go by time machine back to age 20 when I had countless time, a lot less patience and possibly no interest in this there will never be enough time, energy or stamina to use it all.  This may be a no brainer to many. Yet to this overachiever who just realized that a new year simply constitutes a number rather than a complete makeover, it is completely liberating.

This knowledge could be applied to anything in life. It is actually how I have lived for years in this body. According to the HMO’s weight charts I am obese! I am too heavy for my height, which if you recall was changed. Apparently the metabolism did not get the memo as I feel good in my clothes and on movement in the world. I choose to see my weight as just a number, just as 2011 is just a number.